The warrior; on guard, entered the woods; with her sword drawn raised to continue the fight. Confusion she found in the silenced trees: where no birds did sing, nor whispering breeze, held her in angst in the dappled light.
Where are the demons that lurk behind; the shadows she’s waiting prepared to slay. Uneasy in the stifled muted air, expecting incursion in her sweeping stare, stepping in rigid suspense on her way.
In the darkness the fear stirs and swells: increasing disturbance in silent discord. What stones has she left forgotten, un-turned? What arrows await to crash and burn? Her waning guard she can not afford.
Turning in tension at the break in the hush: the stillness broken by a beat of wings. The warrior approaches with intrepid stealth; what danger has fear finally dealt? The gift of peace the butterfly brings.
Utterly spent, the warrior kneels: in awe of the delicate beauty before. Sh bows her head and closes her eyes; no longer afraid of her demise, and stands on the threshold of her hearts door.
There in the woods, the shadows melt, the dappled light reveals a warmth. She places her sword upon the moss; takes down her shield from upon the cross; for here she is sheltered from the storm.
Listen with love to your heart and soul; in sync with your life’s force and beat. Here within serenity’s flow; you may, breathe, restore and grow. For here in the woods the warrior’s found peace.
I wrote this musing this morning as a means of processing how I have been feeling of late. The proverbial internal woods of the heart and mind, have traditionally represented a place where i have felt lost, confused, depressed, fighting shadows and demons on my own heart and mind. Therefore when the feeling rises within me that once again I find myself entering the woods upon my life’s path; it’s easy for me to go to programmed responses of fear and anxiety, isolation and potential depression. And yet this time it has been different for me. I have entered the so called woods within my heart to be met with a silence and a stillness that is unfamiliar to me. Therefore that sense of unease has in itself brought its own set of fears and anxieties with it. These last 4-months I have been fighting hard to scramble some semblance of foundation on which I may lay under both my own and my children’s feet in the wake of life changing experiences. I have fought to keep the home and means in order to live and grow from. I have fought inner turmoil and demons at every step along my way as well as those who have attacked from others who desire to see me flail and fail. I am now reaching a point at present where everything seems to have slowed down allowing for a steady flow. And yet I have been fearful; afraid and anxious that I am missing something, that i should be continuing to fight and be ever on guard in fear of letting my guard down should others attack hidden lying in wait behind corners and within shadows. I am tired and in need of rest and restoration trying to make sense of why I have been projected into the woods within. My own spiritual journey of guidance in the form of Archangel Michael, has had me questioning extensively what it is I am to be learning experiencing right now, as Michael reminds me that even a warrior must rest and restore. That in fact when i change the way i am looking and feeling about this; the way i shall look and feel about this will change. And here’s the change in perspective. Perhaps I have not been abandoned and isolated at all, but being given space to reconnect with my inner self. Maybe there are not demons and dangers lurking in the shadows, but beauty and peace to be found and listened to with the dappled light of the peacefulness of the silence. Perhaps if I allow my self to stop, meditate, relax and breathe, I will in fact hear the beating of the butterflies wings, the whispering of the leaves in the trees, and the serene song of the birds. That in this moment, I am to feel the soft moss under my bare feet and the warmth of the light breaking through the canopy. Perhaps here I shall soothe my soul and ease my anxieties allowing my heart to restore with peace and calm. When you have been travelling at high pace through uncertain times, emotional challenges and mental stress: you NEED to time to cleanse, clear, slow down and heal. You can not travel at fast pace for so long before you become tired and weary, overwhelmed and out of breath. And this is how I have arrived into the darkness of the woods, not to continue fighting, but to allow my sight and senses to©© restore the beauty and peace as within my heart and mind. The serenity of the woods is a place where you may reconnect with yourself and root yourself within grace and strength in order to grow through the canopies of your mind and grow your inner light with love ❤
When I think and write about this from this perspective, I find myself no longer afraid of the woods, my anxieties easing and my mind slowing down during this perfectly gifted divine time of summer during this spiritual growth master 11 year for it is in our silence that we may hear the greatest wisdom and see the universe within us connecting us all as within as without to infinity and beyond through our hearts with love ❤
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